A loud bang.
No, it is more than that.
It is a deafening news!
I cannot hear anything.
I can only feel tiny consistent force choking my heart.
I cannot explain the pain but I know it is hurting me so much more than I think I can handle.
It is way beyond my emotional strength.
I can’t help but hide again to that one place I call safe.
Deep down there I know I cannot be safe but I know the dangers better than that of the outside.
I cannot stop the tears rolling down my not-so-rosy cheeks.
Yes, I find humor in my pain.
I needed to.
I wanted to.
I dreaded this moment.
I wanted to forget this chapter of my life.
If I could only use a delete button, but I cannot.
But I cannot go through this pain again.
That is for sure.
I cannot be hurt again.
I promise myself, it would never happen again.
Seems like I’m fooling myself.
I am bound to be hurt over again.
I can’t be ready.
I won’t be ready.